On the morning we left I woke early. I couldn’t handle the impact of my emotion. I felt strong but I needed to be alone to work out what to do with it. So I went to the bottom of the garden and wrote this message to myself:
I am open.
I am receptive to whatever this experience is.
I will open myself within every little challenge to softly and gently allow the truth to evolve.
I will watch it blossom.
I will centre and strengthen myself around my true and wild soul.
I will respect the gift of soulful truth by listening and by receiving wisdom.
I will not resist my emotions. I will not judge myself or others.
I will break down. I will rise again.
Today is the first time I have needed that strength. That garden feels a world away. That frame of mind seems beyond my reach.